30.3.10

The American Fear Of Literature


This text is an extract from An American Primer a book edited by Daniel J.Boorstin.

In fact this book is a brilliantly comprehensive gathering of the most important documents of the American past...


Sinclair Lewis

The American Fear Of Literature

1930


Were I to express my feeling of honor and pleasure in having been awarded the Nobel Prize in Literature, I should be fulsome and perhaps tedious, and I present my gratitude with a plain «Thank you».

I wish, in this address, to consider certain trends, certain dangers, and certain high and exciting promises in present-day American literature. To discuss this with complete and unguarded frankness - and I should not insult you by being otherwise than completely honest, however indiscreet - it will be necessary for me to be a little impolite regarding certain institutions and persons of my own greatly beloved land.

But I beg of you to believe that I am in no case gratifying a grudge. Fortune has dealt with me rather too well. I have known little struggle, not much poverty, many generosities. Now and then I have, for my books or myself, been somewhat warmly denounced - there was one good pastor in California who upon reading my Elmer Gantrydesired to lead a mob and lynch me, while another holy man in the state of Maine wondered if there was no respectable and righteous way of putting me in jail. And, much harder to endure than any raging condemnation, a certain number of old acquaintances among journalists, what in the galloping American slang we call the «I Knew Him When Club », have scribbled that since they know me personally, therefore I must be a rather low sort of fellow and certainly no writer. But if I have now and then received such cheering brickbats, still I, who have heaved a good many bricks myself, would be fatuous not to expect a fair number in return.

No, I have for myself no conceivable complaint to make, and yet for American literature in general, and its standing in a country where industrialism and finance and science flourish and the only arts that are vital and respected are architecture and the film, I have a considerable complaint.



I can illustrate by an incident which chances to concern the Swedish Academy and myself and which happened a few days ago, just before I took the ship at New York for Sweden. There is in America a learned and most amiable old gentleman who has been a pastor, a university professor, and a diplomat. He is a member of the American Academy of Arts and Letters and no few universities have honored him with degrees. As a writer he is chiefly known for his pleasant little essays on the joy of fishing. I do not Suppose that professional fishermen, whose lives depend on the run of cod or herring, find it altogether an amusing occupation, but from these essays I learned, as a boy, that there is something very important and spiritual about catching fish, if you have no need of doing so.

This scholar stated, and publicly, that in awarding the Nobel Prize to a person who has scoffed at American institutions as much as I have, the Nobel Committee and the Swedish Academy had insulted America. I don't know whether, as an ex-diplomat, he intends to have an international incident made of it, and perhaps demand of the American Government that they land Marines in Stockholm to protect American literary rights, but I hope not.

I should have supposed that to a man so learned as to have been made a Doctor of Divinity, a Doctor of Letters, and I do not know how many other imposing magnificences, the matter would have seemed different; I should have supposed that he would have reasoned, «Although personally I dislike this man's books, nevertheless the Swedish Academy has in choosing him honored America by assuming that the Americans are no longer a puerile backwoods clan, so inferior that they are afraid of criticism, but instead a nation come of age and able to consider calmly and maturely any dissection of their land, however scoffing.»

I should even have supposed that so international a scholar would have believed that Scandinavia, accustomed to the works of Strindberg, Ibsen, and Pontoppidan, would not have been peculiarly shocked by a writer whose most anarchistic assertion has been that America, with all her wealth and power, has not yet produced a civilization good enough to satisfy the deepest wants of human creatures.

I believe that Strindberg rarely sang the «Star-Spangled Banner» or addressed Rotary Clubs, yet Sweden seems to have survived him.

I have at such length discussed this criticism of the learned fisherman not because it has any conceivable importance in itself, but because it does illustrate the fact that in America most of us - not readers alone but even writers - are still afraid of any literature which is not a glorification of everything American, a glorification of our faults as well as our virtues. To be not only a best seller in America but to be really beloved, a novelist must assert that all American men are tall, handsome, rich, honest, and powerful at golf; that all country towns are filled with neighbors who do nothing from day to day save go about being kind to one another; that although American girls may be wild, they change always into perfect wives and mothers; and that, geographically, America is composed solely of New York, which is inhabited entirely by millionaires; of the West, which keeps unchanged all the boisterous heroism of 1870; and of the South, where everyone lives on a plantation perpetually glossy with moonlight and scented with magnolias.

It is not today vastly more true than it was twenty years ago that such novelists of ours as you have read in Sweden, novelists like Dreiser and Willa Cather, are authentically popular and influential in America. As it was revealed by the venerable fishing Academician whom I have quoted, we still most revere the writers for the popular magazines who in a hearty and edifying chorus chant that the America of a hundred and twenty million population is still as simple, as pastoral, as it was when it had but forty million; that in an industrial plant with ten thousand employees, the relationship between the worker and the manager is still as neighborly and uncomplex as in a factory of 1840, with five employees; that the relationships between father and son, between husband and wife, are precisely the same in an apartment in a thirty-story palace today, with three motor cars awaiting the family below and five books on the library shelves and a divorce imminent in the family next week, as were those relationships in a rose-veiled five-room cottage in 1880; that, in fine, America has gone through the revolutionary change from rustic colony to world empire without having in the least altered the bucolic and Puritanic simplicity of Uncle Sam.

I am, actually, extremely grateful to the fishing Academician for having somewhat condemned me. For since he is a leading member of the American Academy of Arts and Letters, he has released me, has given me the right to speak as frankly of that Academy as he has spoken of me. And in any honest study of American intellectualism today, that curious institution must be considered.

Before I consider the Academy, however, let me sketch a fantasy which has pleased me the last few days in the unavoidable idleness of a rough trip on the Atlantic. I am sure that you know, by now, that the award to me of the Nobel Prize has by no means been altogether popular in America. Doubtless the experience is not new to you. I fancy that when you gave the award even to Thomas Mann, whose Zauberberg seems to me to contain the whole of intellectual Europe, even when you gave it to Kipling, whose social significance is so profound that it has been rather authoritatively said that he created the British Empire, even when you gave it to Bernard Shaw, there were countrymen to those authors who complained because you did not choose another.

And I imagined what would have been said had you chosen some American other than myself. Suppose you had taken Theodore Dreiser.

Now to me, as to many other American writers, Dreiser more than any other man, marching alone, usually unappreciated, often hated, has cleared the trail from Victorian and Howellsian timidity and gentility in American fiction to honesty and boldness and passion of life. Without his pioneering, I doubt if any of us could, unless we liked to be sent to jail, seek to express life and beauty and terror.

My great colleague Sherwood Anderson has proclaimed this leadership of Dreiser. I am delighted to join him. Dreiser's great first novel, Sister Carrie, which he dared to publish thirty long years ago and which I read twenty-five years ago, came to housebound and airless America like a great free Western wind, and to our stuffy domesticity gave us the first fresh air since Mark Twain and Whitman.

Yet had you given the Prize to Mr. Dreiser, you would have heard groans from America; you would have heard that his style - I am not exactly sure what this mystic quality «style» may be, but I find the word so often in the writings of minor critics that I suppose it must exist - you would have heard that his style is cumbersome, that his choice of words is insensitive, that his books are interminable. And certainly respectable scholars would complain that in Mr. Dreiser's world, men and women are often sinful and tragic and despairing, instead of being forever sunny and full of song and virtue, as befits authentic Americans.

And had you chosen Mr. Eugene O'Neill, who has done nothing much in American drama save to transform it utterly, in ten or twelve years, from a false world of neat and competent trickery to a world of splendor and fear and greatness, you would have been reminded that he has done something far worse than scoffing - he has seen life as not to be neatly arranged in the study of a scholar but as a terrifying, magnificent, and often quite horrible thing akin to the tornado, the earthquake, the devastating fire.

And had you given Mr. James Branch Cabell the Prize, you would have been told that he is too fantastically malicious. So would you have been told that Miss Willa Cather, for all the homely virtue of her novels concerning the peasants of Nebraska, has in her novel,The Lost Lady, been so untrue to America's patent and perpetual and possibly tedious virtuousness as to picture an abandoned woman who remains, nevertheless, uncannily charming even to the virtuous, in a story without any moral; that Mr. Henry Mencken is the worst of all scoffers; that Mr. Sherwood Anderson viciously errs in considering sex as important a force in life as fishing; that Mr. Upton Sinclair, being a Socialist, sins against the perfectness of American capitalistic mass production; that Mr. Joseph Hergesheimer is un-American in regarding graciousness of manner and beauty of surface as of some importance in the endurance of daily life; and that Mr. Ernest Hemingway is not only too young but, far worse, uses language which should be unknown to gentlemen; that he acknowledges drunkenness as one of man's eternal ways to happiness, and asserts that a soldier may find love more significant than the hearty slaughter of men in battle.

Yes, they are wicked, these colleagues of mine; you would have done almost as evilly to have chosen them as to have chosen me; and as a chauvinistic American - only, mind you, as an American of 1930 and not of 1880 - I rejoice that they are my countrymen and countrywomen, and that I may speak of them with pride even in the Europe of Thomas Mann, H. G. Wells, Galsworthy, Knut Hamsun, Arnold Bennett, Feuchtwanger,Selma Lagerlöf, Sigrid Undset, Verner von Heidenstam, D'Annunzio, Romain Rolland.

It is my fate in this paper to swing constantly from optimism to pessimism and back, but so is it the fate of anyone who writes or speaks of anything in America - the most contradictory, the most depressing, the most stirring, of any land in the world today.

Thus, having with no muted pride called the roll of what seem to me to be great men and women in American literary life today, and having indeed omitted a dozen other names of which I should like to boast were there time, I must turn again and assert that in our contemporary American literature, indeed in all American arts save architecture and the film, we - yes, we who have such pregnant and vigorous standards in commerce and science - have no standards, no healing communication, no heroes to be followed nor villains to be condemned, no certain ways to be pursued, and no dangerous paths to be avoided.

The American novelist or poet or dramatist or sculptor or painter must work alone, in confusion, unassisted save by his own integrity.

That, of course, has always been the lot of the artist. The vagabond and criminal François Villon had certainly no smug and comfortable refuge in which elegant ladies would hold his hand and comfort his starveling soul and more starved body. He, veritably a great man, destined to outlive in history all the dukes and puissant cardinals whose robes he was esteemed unworthy to touch, had for his lot the gutter and the hardened crust.

Such poverty is not for the artist in America. They pay us, indeed, only too well; that writer is a failure who cannot have his butler and motor and his villa at Palm Beach, where he is permitted to mingle almost in equality with the barons of banking. But he is oppressed ever by something worse than poverty - by the feeling that what he creates does not matter, that he is expected by his readers to be only a decorator or a clown, or that he is good-naturedly accepted as a scoffer whose bark probably is worse than his bite and who probably is a good fellow at heart, who in any case certainly does not count in a land that produces eighty-story buildings, motors by the million, and wheat by the billions of bushels. And he has no institution, no group, to which he can turn for inspiration, whose criticism he can accept and whose praise will be precious to him.

What institutions have we?

The American Academy of Arts and Letters does contain, along with several excellent painters and architects and statesmen, such a really distinguished university president as Nicholas Murray Butler, so admirable and courageous a scholar as Wilbur Cross, and several first-rate writers: the poets Edwin Arlington Robinson and Robert Frost, the free-minded publicist James Truslow Adams, and the novelists Edith Wharton, Hamlin Garland, Owen Wister, Brand Whitlock, and Booth Tarkington.

But it does not include Theodore Dreiser, Henry Mencken, our most vivid critic, George Jean Nathan, who, though still young, is certainly the dean of our dramatic critics, Eugene O'Neill, incomparably our best dramatist, the really original and vital poets, Edna St. Vincent Millay and Carl Sandburg, Robinson Jeffers and Vachel Lindsay and Edgar Lee Masters, whose Spoon River Anthology was so utterly different from any other poetry ever published, so fresh, so authoritative, so free from any gropings and timidities that it came like a revelation and created a new school of native American poetry. It does not include the novelists and short-story writers, Willa Cather, Joseph Hergesheimer, Sherwood Anderson, Ring Lardner, Ernest Hemingway, Louis Bromfield, Wilbur Daniel Steele, Fannie Hurst, Mary Austin, James Branch Cabell, Edna Ferber, nor Upton Sinclair, of whom you must say, whether you admire or detest his aggressive socialism, that he is internationally better known than any other American artist whosoever, be he novelist, poet, painter, sculptor, musician, architect.

I should not expect any Academy to be so fortunate as to contain all these writers, but one which fails to contain any of them, which thus cuts itself off from so much of what is living and vigorous and original in American letters, can have no relationship whatever to our life and aspirations. It does not represent the literary America of today - it represents only Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.

It might be answered that, after all, the Academy is limited to fifty members; that, naturally, it cannot include every one of merit. But the fact is that while most of our few giants are excluded, the Academy does have room to include three extraordinarily bad poets, two very melodramatic and insignificant playwrights, two gentlemen who are known only because they are university presidents, a man who was thirty years ago known as a rather clever, humorous draughtsman, and several gentlemen of whom - I sadly confess my ignorance - I have never heard.

Let me again emphasize the fact - for it is a fact - that I am not attacking the American Academy. It is a hospitable and generous and decidedly dignified institution. And it is not altogether the Academy's fault that it does not contain many of the men who have significance in our letters. Sometimes it is the fault of those writers themselves. I cannot imagine that grizzly bear Theodore Dreiser being comfortable at the serenely Athenian dinners of the Academy, and were they to invite Mencken, he would infuriate them with his boisterous jeering. No, I am not attacking - I am reluctantly considering the Academy because it is so perfect an example of the divorce in America of intellectual life from all authentic standards of importance and reality.

28.3.10

From the book All is mind by David Samuel

While observing yourself, you can see that what you think you believe is not what
you really believe. Why didn't you notice this discrepancy before? Because
awareness of all the contradictions in your belief system would be difficult to bear.
In order to function without feeling guilt or remorse over your contradictory
behaviour, the mind has created buffers in your subconscious. It is buffers that
prevent you from seeing your internal contradictions.
A buffer is something that absorbs the shock when two objects crash together,
preventing or reducing the damage. Buffers are fully automatic like the heart.
Buffers send out flares that distract your attention from noticing incompatible
actions with your beliefs about yourself. The most obvious buffers are the
justifications and memory lapses that obliterate your actions from your mind.
Caught in a lie, for instance, you may justify your actions or change the topic of
conversation rather than see yourself as a liar. If you do acknowledge your lie at the
moment, you will most probably quickly forget about the situation. Some people
don't forget, and they hold the problem with them, causing the mind to be
preoccupied and fretting over unfinished business. That is draining, so buffers can be
useful to the productive modern person in that they distract your mind from being
preoccupied with one thought from the past rather than moving on. In a way they
can help you let go of needless thoughts.
Of course that can be a very destructive effect of buffers since it allows us to
commit acts that are harmful to ourselves and others and not have any conscience
about them so we can commit the same act again and again. Buffers can as well
mal-function just like any organ and work for us or against us.
Another buffer effect is someone who has a short attention span, jumping from one
activity to another. Simple things like reading a magazine, going for coffee,
watching TV instead of tackling some pending tasks could be distracting buffers. All
of a sudden you may feel the need to go for a walk when an argument is brewing. In
many situations, buffers are the cause of avoidance.
Buffers often work against us. If you don't think much of yourself and achieve
something of great value, you may come up with some self-deprecating comments or
just put down your success to luck, unrepeatable as an experience and deny yourself
the credit you deserve. This perpetuates low self-esteem. These are of course only
examples which you can adjust to fit your own life to test the principle.
Buffers can help you concentrate. Many people can get so focused in reading
something, or watching a show or any activity, that you can talk to them and they
just don’t hear or know you are there at all. Funny enough, they may even respond
and not recall that later. This can be a very good ability of concentration, but it can
also be a buffer that just does not want to deal with who is talking to them or what
they may be talking about. It is not hard to know the difference between a buffer
and good concentration.
Buffers are also very good at blame. If you do something and you know it is your
own fault, a buffer can give you all sorts of reasons why another person is to blame,
turning the spotlight off you and put it on another person. Funny enough, this is a
very common event for not only average people, but for people who profess to be
on a path. When they are going against their path, they may find all sorts of
excuses and reasons that it was not their fault but circumstances or someone else
who triggered it.
If you have a negative or confrontational nature, buffers will always find ways to
blame another person for getting you upset even though it is fully in your control to
be upset or not. Buffers are very good tricksters except that they often only trick
their host. Other people can see what is going on in the justification and so a fight
develops when more buffers come up to justify the buffers that caused the conflict.
Buffers will not stop until they are clearly seen and you refuse to listen to their
tricks.
Buffers can only function in mental darkness. They are like the monster that
vanishes when the lights are turned on. If you can see a buffer in action, then it no
longer has its power to distract your mind. Buffers are the original illusionist,
getting your attention with one hand while moving the objects with the other.
We cannot change anything if we do not see what is happening. If you want to
change then you have to see your true nature. In order to do this you must
eliminate or reduce the buffers in your mind. Then you can see the fragmentation,
because that is another activity of buffers, to hide us from seeing our fragmentation
and self-lying. When the buffers are seen and reduced, then fragmentation
becomes more visible, then unification can proceed.
To reduce buffers, enlist the aid of anyone close to you who can point out when you
act contradictory or justify any incorrect actions additionally, use the 5 Questions
each night to review your day. Continued practice will begin to open your mind to
the objective reality of what you are like. You may not like what you see, and then
buffers will jump up to do their job and distracted or justify so that you do not feel
the pain. Stick with the thought, pursue the observation until you learn to live with
your actions, and of course in seeing what you are doing, you will naturally reduce
the negative actions.
It is much harder to consciously stick the knife in your own belly than it is to do it
under hypnosis.


5 Questions
Ask yourself these 5 questions each night before going to sleep. actions of the day without regret or self indulgence. Merely actions objectively.
What did I do well today?
What did I do that I should not have done?
What didn’t I do that I should have done?
What did I do that I could have done better?
What do I want to do tomorrow?
27.3.10

داءٌ و دواء






...داءٌ و دواء
...عدوٌّ و أعداء
...و لو لا إيماني بمُصطلح ابتلاء
تراني اقذف بنفسي من فوق أسطح ديار الفناء
فتعانق روحي أحضان السماء...و لكن
هذا مجرّد داء و دواء
عدوٌّ و أعداء
...أنت الداء و نحن الدواء
...عُد ت عدُوًّا فنحن الأعداء
23.3.10

La triste réalité




Comme d’habitude il s’est levé tôt non pour avoir le temps de prendre son petit déjeuner mais ‎plutôt pour être parmi les premier à arriver à la station du bus…‎
Et voilà comme il l’a prévu il a trouvé une place, et il est là bas assis dans son coin en ‎attendant le démarrage du bus…‎
Comme toujours l’autobus n’a pas pris la route qu’après être surchargé…et comme toujours il ‎a ouvert son sac a dos, il a laissé apparaitre un livre et il s’est mis à lire…‎
Pour lui se mettre à lire pendant le trajet c’est une autre façon d’éviter le contact visuel avec ‎les passagers, une façon d’éviter de regarder les chaussures de cet homme ou le corps de cette ‎fille ou n’importe autre débile habitude qui ne sert a rien qu’a faire revivre des sentiments qui ‎se manifestaient en dehors de leurs contextes temporels…‎
Lire un livre c’est une façon d’oublier qu’il se trouvait dans un moyen de transport commun ‎ou il ne peut pas bouger sa tête librement car il risquait de toucher les seins d’une femme avec ‎le bout de son nez, il a choisi de le (son bout de nez) mettre en contact avec la page qu’il ‎lisait…‎
Pour lui lire un livre sur le trajet est une façon d’éviter de voir cette fille qui essayait de ‎s’échapper de ce vieille homme qui lui touche les fesses d’une façon inaperçue et discrète ‎sous prétexte que ce n’est pas parce qu’il le veut mais plutôt c’est parce que le bus est ‎surchargé, et par hasard derrière elle il s’est trouvé…‎
En lisant un livre il essaye d’éviter de chercher à comprendre pourquoi le vieillard lui touche ‎les fesses et pourquoi elle a porté ce pantalon léger et extrêmement serré…‎
Pour lui, il préfère voyager, sortir de l’atmosphère où il se trouvait (le bus) s’évader loin de la ‎triste réalité et c’est pour cette raison que pour le livre il a opté…‎
Une triste réalité puisque les gens lui jetaient des regards exclamatifs et parfois interrogatifs ‎comme si ce qu’il est en train de faire est injuste, vicieux, ou honteux…‎
Il se sentait extraterrestre, coupable d’un crime qu’il n’a pas commis, chaque fois qu’il ouvrait ‎son livre dans le bus il se sentait comme un artiste, un comédien ou un chanteur qui montait ‎pour la première fois sur la scène et qui devrait faire son spectacle devant cette foule de gens ‎déjà déprimés…chaque fois qu’il ouvre son livre dans le bus il a le trac…‎
Les passagers qu’ils l’entourent ont choisi de ne pas suivre les activités du vieillard, le ‎culpabiliser ou même penser a le déranger, et la dame qui avait les fesses cajolées se retourna ‎vers lui et dit : « mais t’en a pas marre de lire, , ah!! T’es pas normale toi…mais quelle triste ‎réalité !! … »‎
Les gens se sont mis à murmurer, quelques uns ont laissé des rires s’échapper, lui ; il fixa la ‎jeune dame avec un regard froid et affligé et lentement remis son nez entre les pages de son ‎bouquin en se disant : « je n’ai rien contre toi mais par contre j’accuse ce vieillard qui pour ‎quelques instants a oublié de te coller pour que tu te rend compte de ma triste réalité.. »‎
Chaque jour il découvrait des nouvelles tristes réalités pendant les trajets en bus qu’il fait, non ‎parce que c’est destiné mais plutôt parce que pour la lecture il a opté…‎
21.3.10

Jeunesse léve toi

A l’occasion de (soi disant) la Fete de la Jeunesse,et parce que j’ai conscience que la ‎plupart des jeunes se croit vivre dans un monde de merveilles et de paix en ignorant qu-il ‎y’a des jeunes souffrant dans les prisons, des jeunes agonisant faute d’une nation…des ‎jeunes delinquants faute de toute une ….à vous de penser à ça…‎




Une chanson de Damien Saez: Jeunesse leve toi




Comme un eclat de rire vient consoler tristesse
Comme un soufle avenir vient raviver les braises
Comme un parfum de souffre qui fait naitre la flamme
Jenesse léve toi…‎

Contre la vie qui va qui vient puis qui s’eteint
Contre l’amour qu’on prend qu’on tient mais qui tient pas
Contre la trace qui qui s’efface au derriere de soi
Jeunesse léve toi…‎

Moi contre ton epaule je repars a la lutte
Contre les gravités qui nous menent à la chute
Pour faire du bruit encore à reveiller les morts
Puor redonner eclat à l’emeraude en toi
Pour rendre crepuscule la beauté des aurores
Dis moi qu’on brule encrore dit moi qui brule encore‎
Cette espoir que tu tiens parce que tu n’en sais rien
De la fougue et du feu que je vois dans tes yeux
Jeunesse leve toi…‎
20.3.10

Libre mais mariée



Elle a décidé de se taire, elle a enfin pris une décision, après des années de mure réflexion, ça y’est elle a choisi d’éviter des futurs confrontations. Pour la première fois dans sa vie elle s’est sentie raisonnable prenant cette décision. Elle ne pourra plus donner de plus après ce qu’elle avait déjà donné…C’est ce qui réside dans sa tête depuis  quelques années…
Elle a pris le courage de le dire à ses enfants :
« Voila, je m’en fous de ce que vous serez, je m’en fous de ce que vous ne serez pas…je m’en balles complètement, et laissez moi vous dire quelque chose ; ne comptez plus sur moi, je pourrais rien faire, je pourrais rien vous promettre, rien vous donner…
Certainement vous avez le droit de me juger entièrement inhumaine, cruelle ou insensée, mais c’est comme ça  jai changé, tout est changé en moi ; mes convictions, mes tendances, mes principes, mes idées, en moi tout a changé….
Surtout je vous conseilles, mes affaires surtout, jamais il faut oser les toucher, c’est un conseil d’une mère a ses enfants ce qui veut dire basé sur un sentiment de maternité, car mes chers, rien de ce que je sais vous savez, même si vous croyez le savoir je vous dit que le monde du savoir n’est rien qu’une planète semi virtuelle d’infinités et réalités ainsi que de vérités cachées…
Sachez que malgré tout ce qui va se passer, sachez que je vous ai aimé, je vous aime et je vous aimerais, et j’espère qu’il viendra le jour ou je pourrais vous voir entrain d’essayer de me libérer…
Sachez que je suis extrêmement desolé et souffrante du faite que vous soyez des êtres multi racinés, j’ai pas pu résister, a vrai dire, les événements j’ai pas pu gèrer…
De n’importe quoi, et n’importe comment et je sais pas quand j’étais née, en faite, ma vie c’est une longue histoire de colonisation corporelle, multitude de races, multitude de civilisations, et je me rappelles pas de vos pères ni les circonstances dans lesquelles vous étés nés…
Ce que je sais et sur quoi je veux insister à vous informer c’est qu’il y’a trois maris qui m’ont marqué :
-le premier, c’était un français, celui là c’est de sa brutalité, son autorité, son pouvoir dans le temps qu’il s’est servi qui m’est marqué, et d’ailleurs si l’un de vous a osé chercher sur mon corps, certainement il trouveras les traces bleus qu’il a laissé….
-le deuxième, celui là il s’est aperçue de la tyrannie et l’extermination dont je souffrais, et avec son intelligence et bons intentions m’a charmé, et il m’a séduit avec son forte révolutionnaire mentalité, c’est lui qui a fait de moi une femme, c’est lui qui a donnée un sense a ma féminité et mes libertés et d’ailleurs la votre aussi mes bien-aimés…
- le troisième, c’est parce que dans le temps, ayant tant d’enfants, cultivés, actifs, dynamiques, et diversifiés de mentalités, parce que inapte de les gérer, et incapable de contrôler leurs activités ; la décision n’a pas pris beaucoup de temps ou même réflexions avant d’être prise et voila à lui je me trouve mariée…
Le mariage c’est un engagement, une sorte de sacrifice, cohérence, réactions et interactions, c’est une relation mais pas forcement basé sur l’amour et la compassion ce qui est mon cas…
Le problème c’est que je me sens vieillie et dépassée, je me sens épuisée, fatiguée de vous jeter des signes pour venir me libérer …car une mère comprend toujours ses fils…je vois et je comprends que vous etes conscients de ce que je souffres mais vous faites comme si rien ne se passe, et rien de me signes vous comprenez…
Moi je comprends que vous voulez vous révolter mais de cette révolution, "par où vous allez commencer" vous ignorez…
Alors voila je l’annonces  mes chers enfants mes chers bien-aimés ; moi j’ai décidé :
Je m’annonce une nation libre mais mariée, je suis soumise a mon mari , alors je vous préviens une autre fois mes enfants que personne ne touche à mes affaires et que personne ne soupçonne mes intérêts…je suis une nation libre mais mariée…"
18.3.10

Bientôt c’est 23 ans...



Bientôt il aura 23 ans… et qui pourras lui dire non ?
Bientôt il fêteras son anniversaire, et comme il l’a fait chaque année ; il leur serviras du gâteau, un gâteau mélangé avec de la chair humaine et du sang…
Cet anniversaire, tout le monde assistera à cet anniversaire, car même s’ils ne le veulent pas, tu finiras par les voir faire semblant d’être heureux et souriants. Ils devront applaudir, parfois chanter, parfois danser, voir même pleurer si par hasard ils s’aperçoivent qu’ils occupent les premières rangées, c’est avec eux que seras la confrontation…
Bientôt c’est 23 ans et qui pourras lui dire non ?


Il n’auras que 23 ans pourtant capable de faire des merveilles ; faire soulager les gens rien que par les terroriser, il réussit à endoctriner toute une population, multiplier ses crimes et faire couler plus de sang, et magnifiquement il gère les embouteillages dans les prisons.et certainement soulager les flammes d’une révolution…


Il n’auras que 23 ans, l’age d’un étudiant qui s’est donné à fond pour enfin se noyer dans ses propres ambitions e se retrouver par la fin tabassé dans des cachots souterrains et continueras sa vie en mode noir et blanc…


Bientôt c’est 23 ans, l’age d’un jeune journaliste qui a comme arme son bout de papier et son stylo, et qui parce qu’il a laissé s’échapper quelque mots indépendantes qui à leur tour se sont placés quelque part sur le papier…lui qui a un moment donné il a voulu écrire quelque chose librement, se retrouve enfin enfermés dans une sombre chambre ou il reçoit chaque jour des démons qui prétendent lui donner ses leçons, disons ce que de la presse il était ignorant…
Ce journaliste ne regrette pas le faite d’écrire librement, ce qui lui a rendu souffrant c’est la presse, à laquelle il a tant d'admiration, respect et dévotion, ce qui lui a rendu souffrant c’est que cette dernière lui a tournée le dos et on lit partout à propos de l’anniversaire qui auras lieu bientôt…

Bientôt c’est 23 ans …et qui pourras lui dire non ?
17.3.10

Je suis Tunisien…

Le Tunisien…quand il prétend être ouvert à la discussion alors qu’il a dans sa tête une ferme et unique conviction c’est de vous convaincre de son point de vue même si il sait qu’elle est erronée par rapport à la tienne…
Le Tunisien ….quand il prétend être modeste alors qu’il fait tout pour te faire sentir qu’il est supérieur à toi que ce soit intellectuellement ou financièrement ou physiquement…alors qu’il sait bien qu’il ne l’est pas…
Le Tunisien…quand tu lui pose une question et il te répond même si il a pas une réponse…mais c’est comme ça, dans sa tête c’est comme ça , il le faut, et par conséquence il crée une pour l’occasion…
Le Tunisien…quand il regarde les films non pour te parler du contenu de ce qu’il a vu, ni de ce qu’il a compris, mais plutôt il les regarde pour te dire «  je les ai vu » et voila  ça veut dire je suis …« In »….
Le Tunisien…quand il ne te diras jamais « je ne sais pas », mais plutôt il préfères commencer a dire des bla-bla-blas…pour lui c’est sa façon de savoir…si tu es contre bah certainement c’est toi qui « ne sait pas »…
Le Tunisien ne se sent pas appartenir à sa société, il ne se sent pas chez lui dans sa patrie…
Le Tunisien se sent un soldat, son compatriote devient son ennemi.
Le Tunisien se sent ou supérieur ou inférieur à l’autre Tunisien, mais jamais il veut admettre qu’il est les deux à la fois…
Le Tunisien qui selon lui, il arriveras le jour ou il sera parfait…oui, parfait …ce qui veut dire : il parle de tout…il fait tout…il sait tout…et voila il comprend tout…
Le Tunisien a peur du Tunisien…il a peur de lui-même…non parce qu’il sait de quoi il est capable…mais plutôt parce qu’il sait que la plupart du temps il est incapable…
Et voila …si vous etes un Tunisien(ne) entrain de lire, vous vous apercevrez que vous ne pouvez pas cesser de penser que je suis…. un ennemi peut être…le gars qui se croit parfait et sait tout…le vantard…bah disons leuuuh Tunisien…
Je l’admet…j’ai peur de ce que vous penserez de moi…puisque tout simplement..En fin de compte je suis Tunisien…
16.3.10

TGM 2020



                                                                                                                            
Four ladies in the picture. Each one of them tells a story.
We want to know their stories.
Why not asking them before we start making prejudices?!!!
15.3.10

The Tunisian Dream

I was in that café listening to old rock music and watching some people playing snooker. The ambience was calm and wonderful when suddenly; one of my mates interrupted our attempt to cope with the atmosphere we were in… He stared deeply at the cigarette, which was almost coming near to burn his index and said:
 “I am trying to imagine how our country will look like in 2035. If only I can get an opportunity to witness for one hour the Tunisian society in 2035, the opportunity to sit there, in a public seat and watch the atmosphere, just one meditation hour…that’s what I want…”
He threw what remained from his cigarette and lit another… We, consequently, found ourselves disconnected from the world and the atmosphere we were trying to cope with and everyone started to picture that Tunisia of the 2030’s.
Few months later, signing in my Facebook account, groups’ invitations were numerous to appear on the right top corner of the page. New kind of groups dealing with the central idea of the presence of secret organisations such as Freemasonry and Illuminati leading and commanding the world, groups dealing with the presence of such conspiratorial Media pattern aiming to spread bad habits in the society, in our society, in the Tunisian society. We are in 2010.
Yesterday I was reading an essays talking about how some people react to unfavourable events, that is to say a category of people among which one always perceives what is adverse as a kind of conspiracy led against him and his convictions.
In The Paranoid Style in American Politics, Richard Hofstadter attributes to this group of people’s way of interpretations of unwanted events as well as their reactions to it the expression “the paranoid style
A type of individual who “sees the hostile and conspiratorial world in which he feels himself to be living as directed specifically against him” as R. Hofstadter said. The author mentioned the Illuminati and Freemasonry as well as Anti-Christians organisations as exemples of the paranoid style’s enemies.
Now what impressed me is that “Illuminism had been founded in 1776” and “Americans first learned of Illuminism in 1797” when John Robison published a volume under the title Proof of a Conspiracy Against All the Religions and Governments of Europe, carried on in the Secret Meeting of Free Masons, Illuminati, and Reading Societies, and from that time onward peoples started to adopt lets say the paranoid style. We are in 2010.
Two hundred and thirty years ago, the American society witnessed a phenomenon nowadays our society is beginning to interact with…
I remember that when my friend lit another cigarette, we spent the whole night trying to picture the Tunisian society in 2035.That night, everyone went to bed with a vague picture of that future society, let me say I went to bed sad because I did not knew or even foresaw what my country can offer to me in the next few years…
Now in this precise moment I feel extremely delighted, in high spirits, and relaxed…Not because I know what our country and society look like in 2035, but because in 2144 we will be hearing about “The Tunisia Dream”…isn’t that cheerful?!....
14.3.10

The Paranoid Style in American Politics



The Paranoid Style in American Politics by Richard Hofstadter, when reading the title I first thought that the issues discussed in the book will be mainly addressed to the American reader, I remember that I took a moment , hesitated for a while , and then asked : “How much ?"
Gave three dinars and went home…
After reading several pages, I realised that the book overpasses its title’s boundaries and for that reason, I decided to give you the opportunity to read some extracts with me…


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The Paranoid Style in American Politics
                                                          
                                                             Chapter 4:

Let us now abstract the basic elements in the paranoid style. The central image is that of a vast and sinister conspiracy, a gigantic and yet subtle machinery of influence set in motion to undermine and destroy a way of life. One may object that there are conspiratorial acts in history, and there is nothing paranoid about taking note of them. This is true. All political behaviour requires strategy, many strategic acts depends for their effect upon a period of secrecy, and anything that is secret may be described, often with but little exaggeration, as conspiratorial. The distinguishing thing about the paranoid style is not that its exponents see conspiracies or plots here and there in history, but that they regard a “vast” or “gigantic” conspiracy as the motive force in historical events. History is a conspiracy, set in motion by demonic forces of almost transcendent power, and what is felt to be needed to defeat it is not the usual methods of political give-and-take, but an all-out crusade.
The paranoid spokesman sees the fate of this conspiracy in apocalyptic terms; he traffics in the birth and death of whole worlds, whole political orders, whole systems of human values. He is always manning the barricades of civilization. He constantly lives at a turning point: it is now or never in organizing resistance to conspiracy. Time is forever just running out. Like religious millenarians, he expresses the anxiety of those who are living through the last days and he is sometimes disposed to set a date for the apocalypse. “Time is running out,” said Welch in 1951. “Evidence is piling up on many sides and from many sources that October 1952 is the fatal month when Stalin will attack.” The apocalypticism of the paranoid style runs dangerously near to hopeless pessimism, but usually stops short of it. Apocalyptic warnings arouse passion and militancy, and strike at susceptibility to similar themes in Christianity. Properly expressed, such warnings serve somewhat the same function as a description of the horrible consequences of sin in a revivalist sermon: they portray that which impends but which may still be avoided. They are a secular and demonic version of Adventism.
As a member of the avant-grade who is capable of perceiving the conspiracy before it is fully obvious to an as yet un-aroused public, the paranoid is a militant leader. He does not see social conflict as something to be mediated and compromised; in the manner of working politician. Since the enemy is thought of as being totally evil and totally unappeasable, he must be totally eliminated if not from the world, at least from the theatre of operations to which the paranoid directs his attention. This demand for unqualified victories leads to the formulation of hopelessly demanding and unrealistic goals, and since these goals are not even remotely attainable, failure constantly heightens the paranoid’s frustration. Even partial success leaves him with the same sense of powerlessness with which he began, and this in turn only strengthens his awareness of the vast and terrifying quality of the enemy he opposes.